"Andria" - Somewhere At The Bottom Of The River Between Vega And Altair - La Dispute

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Andria, La Dispute

I still remember how the distance tricked us,

and lead us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devoured.

I still remember how we held so strong to this,

though we had never really settled on a way out.

I still remember the silence, and how we’d always find a way

to turn and run to our mistakes.

I still remember how it all came back together just to fall apart again.

My dear, I hear your voice in mine.

I’ve been alone here, I’ve been afraid, my dear.

I’ve been at home here. You’ve been away for years. I’ve been alone.

I breathed your name into the air; I etched your name into me.

I felt my anger swelling; I swam into its sea.

I held your name inside my heart, but it got buried in my fear.

It tore the wiring of my brain; I did my best to keep it clear.

So, dear, no matter how we part, I hold you sweetly in my head.

And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead.

If I can’t love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend.

And I will lay a bed before you; keep you safe until the end.